Back from Paris

So I am back from Paris but I am not feeling too great, I have a cold and cough and am really tearful and feel like everything is getting on top of me plus my eczma is flaring up which makes me worry even more. Boyfriend has been perfect, I came home to a spotless house and dinner in the oven :), and he isn't even angry with me yet for crying for no reason!

I have my presentation to do for tomorrow, and my frenchy essay due in but i feel like i just need two days to sort my life out. I can't decide whether I am feeling so bad because I am tired, have lots to do, or because I had a bit to drink in paris, two nights in a row (by a bit, i mean just to become tipsy) but alcohol effects me really badly and can make me really miserable for days afterwards. Maybe I really should give it up completely?

Dissapointed with Myself

I am so very annoyed with myself right now, I am leaving for Paris in 2 hours and am just beginning my essay on the rise of China and regional Security Implications, how rididculous is that?! I am supposed to be making a real effort now this all counts but I have clearly gone wrong somewhere, I think I made an effort for things that weren't too pressing such as extra reading around lectures, rather than getting my actual assessments done and started early. I suppose I will just have to learn from it, but not to make excuses, a lot of it is pure laziness on my part, and bad planning (with the Christening and Paris) I haven't really had much time for studying. It is 1000 words I have to write, so here goes nothing!

Panic

I have an awful lot of studying to be getting on with this evening, which is probably why I have created a brand new blog! But it has to be said my motivation this semester is dissapointingly dwindling, and I am going to have to pay for it! Trust it to happen just when I have lots of assessments due.

I went home for the weekend to see my family and go to a friends son's christening. The Christening was really nice but the train journey back took forever which meant that I ddn't get back til late and didn't get up til late this morning either. I have thrown myself off even more in being away from home. If that wasn't enough, I am going away this thursday to Paris for a long weekend, which means essays that need to be in on friday actually need to be in on thursday instead and I have to complete preparation for a presentation which I need to do.

Not only that but our exam timetables were released at the end of this week which is pretty scary as far as I am concerned! This degree is going to be over and done with so quickly! I suppose thats all the more reason to work harder than ever, because it really is only for a short period of time. Enough about work, I very much do not intend for this blog to be just a place where I complain about how much work I have to do! Hopefully, it will be one litterally documenting my progress over the next few years.

Apart from that everything is okay I guess, I feel like a lot has happened in the last week or so, and i'm sure I will come back to it when appropriate but for now, I need to try and get this essay finished this evening *fingers crossed* . I will no doubt be back soon, but actually with something to say, possibly after Paris, which I have too much work to do which is preventing me from being even remotely excited.

First Post

Right, this is a blog I have created for people to actually read!

I have a personal blog already, which I have considered making public but I feel I divulge far to much information in there! So here is a little bit of information about me to get started.

For the purpose of this blog, you can call me Olive, I live with my boyfriend of 2 years in the South West, where I am at University. I am originally from about a 3 hours drive north of here but I can't really ever see my self going back really! (This is no reflection on my family there because I love them to pieces and still cry about missing them!)

So I suppose as an introduction there isn't really much more to say. I just feel like starting this blog now is quite appropriate as i am half way through university already and feel like I am slowly being nudged into big peoples world, and although there are some things that I am so very excited for, I hate the uncertainty that it brings.

So if you want to have a follow, just add me!