Coming off the Pill

So i stopped taking my Pill 3 weeks ago, It was okay at first, as i knew it would be because I have 7 day breaks anyway, but now I am having serious withdrawal whilst my body is trying to get back to normal. It is horrible, my mood swings are horrific, never had anything like them and my Boy is getting the full brunt of it but he isn't being understanding at all, just horrible, which is making me worse. I just hope my body sorts itself out quickly. I regret ever going on the pill. Its a horrible thing to be constantly pumping yourself full of crap, and having to deal with the conseqences when you do want to stop, but no one tells you about them when you start taking them. No one says you might not have a period for a year, or you might be depressed for 6 months or any of that. Eugh. Horrible. I HATE hormonal contraception.

Update

I haven't blogged in a while, I have been very busy with exams and I still am! I have done two and they have gone badly unfortunately, so I need to concentrate on these next two which are tomorrow and wednesday, then I have my first driving lesson tuesday!

What isn't helping is that I am having (or convincing myself to have!) another big worry about the possibility of being pregnant. But that is a long story, maybe for another time, but after it passes, which i'm sure it will, it will probably slip from my mind! I am such a worrier!

Sorting my life out

I have booked my first driving lesson!! It is on the 26th of January and I will book a set of 20 lessons (2 hours a week) which means I will have lessons for the next 2 months....I don't really want to be doing much more than 20 lessons, because I simply can't afford it so hopefully I will be a good driver. Eeeeekkk, scary stuff!

Catch up!

I haven't written in a long while! I have been very busy. I went to France with my Boy, his Dad, Grandma, Auntie and two sisters, who had never really spent any time with their Dad before (he abandonded them when they were little) so it was a very interesting experience.

My man got a little bit overwhelmed by it all, (including his Dad continuing to be a completing arrse and treating him like a doormat as usual) and got really upset one day. It breaks my heart to see him upset. Anyway, he is leaving things with his Dad for a while now and seeing if he really cares. The place we stayed was lovely. A chateau with a river going under it, and we just entertained ourself in an old fashioned way, making boats out of paper and bottles and racing them down the river, playing bowls and playing cards. We got back on the Sunday after another 12 hour drive back to my Family. My man stayed at mine and we left for University and to go back to our flat on the Monday.

So we have been back five days, and everything has gone quite according to plan. I have been at university every day since Tuesday and have done about 5 hours of revision each day, but some were a little more distracted than others. Have been eating really healthy dinners, mainly chicken breast (roasted) and vegetables, and not too much food. I don't feel like I am loosing any weight though, but I suppose it is early days and I never weighed myself to begin with!

The weather has been interesting! Its snowed on Wednesday and has been around since because as I am sure you all know the whole of the UK is freezing at the moment! I have walked to/back from uni a couple of times, as part of a bid to increase my activity levels.

This evening we are supposed to be having a poker night. My mans friends are coming round and we brought in beers (I have my Crabbies alcoholic Ginger Beer, which if you like normal ginger beer I urge you to try! Its delicious!!) and tortilla chips and dips and nuts. Which is no doubt going to sabotage my healthy eating for the evening but such things don't put me off anymore. Having one bad evening a week is a lot better than 7 a week, which is what mine used to be with the way I was eating.

Anyway, I have decided to put 120 million percent into my exams now because I won't really have anymore exams in the future. I think next semester I will have one, maybe two, but when there aren't that many its different. So i plan to up the anti a little bit with regards to the time I get to and leave the library.

Just wanted to add, that me and my munchkin have been getting on amazingly over the past few weeks and I am literally loving every min of being with him. I thought such feelings would fade a little bit after being together for 2 and a half years, and maybe a little bit with moving in together and seeing eachother alllll the time but then it wouldn't be true love would it :)

Happy new year!