Not feeling too good

My max isn't making me feel very good at the moment, so I am not feeling very good about myself. I just feel down.

I have booked my driving test for the 9th of April which is some good news, I didn't have a lesson this week but I am having two 2 hour lessons as of next week. Hopefully that should be enough and I will feel confident when the time comes. Then I will collect my car on April 2010.
I don't know if I wrote that I passed my theory test, but I did pass well.

I also had my telephone interview for alumni fundraiser and it went better than last time so I feel better about that, still not sure I was good enough though. I have an interview for disability coordinator on the 12th of March in Bristol, but I am also waiting to hear about the job I applied for in the english language department.

I'm going to go now, cos I have a presentation

NATWEST

Are being idiots, I just applied for a credit card with them and they rejected me. I wanted it for security if my funds are low when learning to drive...oh well. I will go into the bank and see what they say. I am still not feeling to good about myself, it seems all I will be doing for the next 6 weeks is trying to study as well as get as much paid work done as i can whilst still worrying about money all the time, and not really going out/doing anything I remotely enjoy at all (except driving lessons)

Thats life.

x~Olive~x

This week

Semester 2 began this week and I am still in quite a large dilemma over what units to choose. Do I wan't to have four 2,500 word essays all due in on the same week or shall I do a different unit and have 3 essays and two exams. I think the latter but now I have to choose between tw different units. one about development and the other a historical IR unit. Now I love IR, but not the history behind it, the here and now is what I love so I am not sure that is the one for me, but the other unit seems less organised and is now classed as a sociology unit (although the content is the same and it was economics up until this year). So tomorrow I suppose I need to make my decision. I will go to the History of IR lecture and see if I like it or not. Then take it from there. Also adding to the dilemma is the fact that the Devleopment lecture is a 9.15 lecture. I am notoriously bad at getting up for 9.15's but I suppose that is just a poor excuse and it needs to be sorted anyway for when i enter the real world! Two 9.15's a week is harldy taxing (I have to get up at 7am at the latest to be ontime for them).

On other things, i had my third driving lesson yesterday and it was amazzziiing!!! I drove so much, did traffic lights, roundabouts, lots of busier junctions, a dual carriage way and I went at almost 60mph! It was so much fun. I literally cannot believe how good of an teacher my driving instructor is. I spoke to her about booking my test at the end and she said 9th of April is fine :D I just need to pass my theory next wednesday then I should be able to book it! Very exciting.

I have been feeling a bit lonely lately, and I can only imagine that it is going to get worse as the semester goes on. It did last year and things were better then as far as knowing people goes..I have tried joining groups and societies, (3 - tramps, L&B, and the newspaper) but nothing good came of any of them so i don't really know what to do anymore. I am just going to try and get as much paid work done as I can in my spare time and hopefully that will occupy me enough. Plus lots of studying of course, that goes without saying, but i am so glad I have essays this term and 2 exams instead of 4.

My man called his Dad today after he hasn't bothered to contact him for nearly a month and a half and he got ignored. I cannot get over how vile that man is, eughh. I can't believe he can treat his own children in such a way. He is THE most selfish person I have ever met and ever hope to meet ever again. It upsets me because I know it is getting to him at the min. On top of that, things are really tight financially, he literally has almost ran out of money and he needs all the help he can get. Because of the the fact that he used to work for him for 2 years and put everything he had into building a relationship with him that way it is hurting him a lot now he has no relationship, no job and no source of income. I just wish I could make his Dad love him so he was happier.

Nothing else is going on in my life as per usual except uni, driving and my boy, so I'll leave it there. I have a 9.15 tomorrow and want to do a quick clean up of the house before I go to bed at 10.30.

x~Olive~x

My Clio

This is what my Clio looks like (its not my actual one because I haven't seen it yet) but i'm sure it is similar, probably not as shiny and 'fresh faced' but the same anyway. I have just formulated a plan for mother to bring it down when she has a week off. Dad isn't happy he wants to keep it until I pass my test but that is just silly. I do not want that to happen. But then Dad is saying that it isn't coming down here unless it is fully insured. Which is rubbish. So i may have to get insurance as a provisional driver and then switch when i pass.

But I am starting to get grumpy with it all now because It is all going to cost soo much money and I don't know if I can afford insurance. It is all so expensive :( oh well....I need to find £550 as it is. Unless I save all of my leisure money for the next few weeks and may be able to scrape together £100 that would help. It isn't like I have any friends to spend money with anyway. What is the point in having a first car if it is just left to rust?

Organisation

So I am trying to sort myself out so I don't crash and burn because it feels like my finances are running away from me, it will no doubt take a few more hours of this afternoon, then I will get on with my spring cleaning that I have decided to embark upon. I think I will have a shower first though....otherwise I will just feel lazy!

Hopefully, I will come back with a smile, thinking i will be able to manage all my bills and even maybe my insurance, but to be honest, I cant be sure I can manage my insurance until I get a summmer job. I need to get insurance though really. I mean, what is the point in having a car if I can't even drive it. Agh, it is going to end up costing me an absolute fortune!

After I manage to scrub and organise and clean every room in the house from top to bottom, i plan to sort out my semester two organisation. Then I can do the shopping tomorrow morning and relax the rest of the weekend. Semester two starts on Monday, I am working a fair bit next week and I need to have everything ready so I can get off to the best possible start with regards to earning money and getting a good degree.

Suprises

On the admin job I applied for, I got an e-mail back the very next morning inviting me for interview which is very promising, fingers crossed I get it! But an even bigger suprise was Dad informing me that he has brought me a car yesterday eeeeeeeekkkkkkkkkkk!!! You have no idea how excited I am, it is a little red Renault Clio, and at first (after some much needed googling) I thought it would be the square, decidedly older version, but today i am told it isn't it is an S Reg 1999, and the first few of the new cute ones. Dad and my little brother also say it is really nice inside, almost like brand new. I am so eager to get it down here it is unreal.

In my excitement I have been looking at insurance quotes all night and I found 10 months (which gives you 1 yr no claims) for 850. Not too bad really. £85 per month is an awful lot of money, but the car's is MOT lasts until 2nd December and it is taxed until May I think, so no money need be spent there. Of course there is petrol etc. but the bus and doing the shopping costs me £13.50 so say £15 squid petrol a week and I should be okies! I hear it is quite economical. Now I just need to pass in April so I can get some proper driving done!

She (the Clio) is my baby already! I was going to name her, but Clio is pretty enough as it is so she will just be my littele Clio :D I might be getting ahead of myself but I reckon I am not too bad of a driver and will be able to pass fairly soon. I know I will need to buy a few more lessons, but hopefully, come Easter time, I am ready. Gosh I am so ridiculously excited. Hence why it is twenty to two and I am still awake. I never stay up this late for no reason! I told my sister about it today. I wasn't allowed to yesterday as Dad was nervous. She was annoyed to say the least. Thinks it is favouritism, but it isn't of course, she just can't be bothered to learn to drive.

I better stop dreaming about my Clio and get myself to bed then. Night!

P.S My Boy's younger sister failed her driving test for the 3rd time today!!! Bless her, but she is probably a pretty good driver by now and I am sure she will pass next time.

x~Olive~x

Catch Up

Ha ha ha, so I just re read my last blog post. Its a bit of a rant is it not?! I have calmed down a bit now, hopefully my hormones will slowly return back to normal this cycle! But yes, hormonal contraception has been abandoned for the time being.

My exams

I finished them last Wednesday, which is nearly a week ago now. I just haven't had time to write about them at all! My first exam was on International Organisations and that went really badly. I think, if I can remember rightly, I amswered one question just okayish, and the second one really badly, so I don't expect to get more than 55% if I am VERY lucky. Not good. But it gets worse. My Economics exam was terrible. Literally shocking. I am predicting somewhere in the realms of 45 % maximum, But i did get 62% on my essay which was worth 50% so that should save me a little bit. My last two politics exams went a lot better I am happy to say. If they went as badly as the first to I would probably have quit uni by now! I felt really good after my 3rd one (hoping for a high 60% , but i have never ever got that in an exam before so I might be dreaming) and my last one I got a brilliant first question and an okay second question so am hoping for 65%. Who knows, I never got what I hoped for in my last exams. Infact. In first year, I think i did decidedly poorly in all my exams. I am so glad, I only have one next semester.

As for everything else, well, my boy is going to Kenya this summer without me :( he didn't want me to come with (its a slightly long story - volunteering) so I am decidely miserable that everyone is going away this year except me (the rest of my family are off to egypt this easter). I need to top up my tan and stop me from getting depressed. So I am going to have to come up with something. I hate having nothing to look forward to.

I have started driving! I had my second 2 hour lesson today, it was quite good, I loved my first lesson. I felt like I had learnt sooo much, this lesson felt a little bit slower, but I did make progress and went out onto a busier road down a massive hill on the way back. We were mostly doing T Junctions, left and right turns, and I think I got the hang of them, I'm not as half as bad a driver as I thought I would be. I have my theory test booked for 2 weeks time so I need to start studying for that. My aim is to pass by the end of April/start of May, so fairly quickly. But my money is running dangerously low.

Erm, nothing else interesting is going on really. I am not going to see my sister, because she never organised it for the Inter Semester Break - which is now, so I am just going to do some admin work, tomorrow, thursday and friday.

I applied for a different job this summer. I am sure I will be able to get my OU job, but I applied for a secretary position, which if I was to get would mean I would earn £5000 over the summer. How AMAZING would that be. I get all tingly just thinking about it! I would cry if I go it. Like literally, I just guess I can hope, thats all.

Anyway, I have to go. Got to make dinner,

x~Olive~x