Reading over my blog has made me realise what an appalling writer I am! I am not engaging in any way. I have read a couple of blogs in my time and so many people have such a beautiful way with words I should really try to make more of an effort to write well when I do get the time to make an entry. I am tempted to make a new blog, and make it more of a literary delight (haha) but that would defeat the point of the blog itself. From studenthood to adulthood is supposed to refelect the changes that have happened in my life and the changes that have happened to me as a person.
The last few weeks have been quite good. Despite making a real pigs ear of my NHS interview, which I am now certain I haven't got. I am feeling quite happy in myself. I am still trying to find ways to become closer to God so there is a lot of thinking going on, but it is all very positive. I have spoken to my OH about how I feel about wanting to become a more dedicated Christian and he is being very understanding. I felt that it would be almost cruel to take certain things away after giving them freely for the last 3 years but he seems to be managing well for now! With regards to our living arrangements. I also told him how I no longer felt it was right for us to co-habit. He is also suprisingly okay with this also! (Alarm bells ringing?! Haha) I really hope he is able to take my faith seriously and respect it always.
This obviously all means quite a lot for our relationship. It is not possible for us to change living arrangments at the moment, but we will only be living together for another 11 weeks, then I plan to house share or potentially (If I am earning enough money) live in a studio apartment, but the cost of living is so high these days particularly living alone. It makes it nearly impossible for any young graduate supporting themselves to do. Anyway, I digress. Our relationship is going to change a lot. We have lived together for the last 2 years, and I have loved every minute of it. So it will be so strange not eating meals with him, coming home to him, waking up next to him every morning, rolling over in bed and his big nose sticking out at me. To be honest I will be VERY eagerly anticipating the day we can start that all again, but right now, isn't as it should be.
We have been so good the last few weeks. So happy, and I love him with all my heart, so I really do hope God guides us and we can one day soon have our relationship blessed in his presence.
